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  Break

  A Stand-Alone Novel

  Cassia Leo

  Gloss Publishing LLC

  BREAK

  by Cassia Leo

  cassialeo.com

  Copyright © 2018 by Cassia Leo.

  First Edition. All rights reserved.

  Cover art by Cassia Leo.

  This book, or parts thereof, may not be reproduced in any form without expressed written permission from the author; exceptions are made for brief excerpts used in published reviews.

  All characters and events appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real events or persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.

  Note to Reader

  Music is an important part of this book. The chapters in this eBook begin with the characters’ names superimposed over an image of a musical note. Tap the musical note (or the links within the chapter) to be taken to a YouTube video of a song that pertains to or is mentioned in that chapter.

  These links are mobile-friendly and work on internet-connected devices such as smart phones, tablets, and computers. These links may not work on all e-readers. If you are reading this eBook on an incompatible e-reader, feel free to open the playlist on a compatible device and follow along as you read.

  The YouTube and Spotify playlists are available at:

  cassialeo.com/break

  View the playlist on YouTube at:

  bit.ly/breakyoutube

  Listen on Spotify at:

  bit.ly/breakspotify

  Prologue “Photograph”

  Ed Sheeran

  Chapter 1 - R.I.P.

  “RIP”

  Olivia O’Brien

  Chapter 2 - A Great Team

  “Team”

  Noah Cyrus & MAX

  “My Favorite Things”

  Julie Andrews

  Chapter 3 - Coming Home

  “Coming Home”

  Dash Berlin feat. Bo Bruce

  “River”

  Leon Bridges

  Chapter 4 - Obsessed

  “Obsessed”

  Maggie Lindemann

  Chapter 5 - A Couple of Kids

  “Couple of Kids”

  Maggie Lindemann

  Chapter 6 - Money

  “Money”

  Pink Floyd

  Chapter 7 - The Wave

  “The Wave”

  R3HAB & Lia Marie Johnson

  Chapter 8 - Ran Away

  “Ran Away”

  Hollow Coves

  “Just The Same”

  Charlotte Lawrence

  Chapter 9 - Habits

  “Habits (Stay High)”

  Tove Lo - Hippie Sabotage Remix

  “In My Blood”

  Shawn Mendes

  Chapter 10 - These Days

  “These Days”

  Rudimental, Ft. Jess Glynne, Macklemore & Dan Caplen

  “Patient”

  Charlie Puth

  Chapter 11 - Firework

  “Hello My Old Heart”

  The Oh Hello’s

  “Firework”

  Katy Perry

  Chapter 12 - Mercy

  “Mercy”

  Shawn Mendes

  Chapter 13 - Stars

  “Stars”

  Alessia Cara

  Chapter 14 - Romantics

  “Romantics”

  Tove Lo

  Chapter 15 - Creep

  “Creep”

  Radiohead

  Chapter 16 - Beautiful

  “Scars To Your Beautiful”

  Alessia Cara

  “Peak (Stripped)”

  Annie Marie

  “Harvest Moon”

  Neil Young

  Chapter 17 - Good As Hell

  “Good As Hell”

  Lizzo

  Chapter 18 - To Be You

  “Like To Be You”

  Shawn Mendes feat. Julia Michaels

  Chapter 19 - The Worst

  “Worst of You”

  Maisie Peters

  “Jump”

  Julia Michaels feat. Trippie Redd

  Chapter 20 - Addicted

  “Back to You”

  Louis Tomlinson feat. Bebe Rexha, Digital Farm Animals

  Chapter 21 - Everything I Want

  “Please, Please, Please, Let me Get What I Want”

  The Smiths

  Chapter 22 - Make Me Cry

  “Make Me (Cry)”

  Noah Cyrus, Labrinth

  Chapter 23 - Carry You

  “Carry You”

  Ruelle feat. Fleurie

  Chapter 24 - The Light

  “The Light”

  Sara Bareilles

  Chapter 25 - California

  “California”

  Lisa Mitchell

  Chapter 26 - Running

  “Silent Running”

  Hidden Citizens

  Chapter 27 - Numb

  “Too Good at Goodbyes”

  Sam Smith

  Chapter 28 - Tears in Heaven

  “Tears in Heaven”

  Eric Clapton

  Chapter 29 - Ordinary World

  “Ordinary World”

  Joy Williams

  “Us”

  James Bay

  “Love Myself (Kream Remix)”

  Hailee Steinfeld

  Chapter 30 - Photograph

  “Photograph”

  Ed Sheeran (Boyce Avenue feat. Bea Miller)

  Contents

  Prologue

  1. R.I.P.

  2. A Great Team

  3. Coming Home

  4. Obsessed

  5. A Couple of Kids

  6. Money

  7. The Wave

  8. Ran Away

  9. Habits

  10. These Days

  11. Firework

  12. Mercy

  13. Stars

  14. Romantics

  15. Creep

  16. Beautiful

  17. Good As Hell

  18. To Be You

  19. The Worst

  20. Addicted

  21. Everything I Want

  22. Make Me Cry

  23. Carry You

  24. The Light

  25. California

  26. Running

  27. Numb

  28. Tears in Heaven

  29. Ordinary World

  30. Photograph

  Preview of Her Guardian

  Also by Cassia Leo

  About the Author

  Prologue

  Then

  They say a picture is worth a thousand words. I would say a picture is worth a lifetime of words, since a single photograph can change your entire life.

  When I was fourteen, a chubby girl in my freshman Spanish class attempted suicide after her former boyfriend posted a naked photo of her on MySpace. It was the scandal of the school year. I publicly expressed my disappointment with the way my fellow classmates were body-shaming her. Privately, though, I judged that girl. I couldn’t help but wonder… Who would be foolish enough to trust a teenage boy with nudes?

  Just ten more minutes. Don’t pass out yet. Just hold on for ten more minutes.

  I repeat the words over and over in my mind, like a mantra. Just ten more minutes and I can go home, drink a gallon of NyQuil, and sleep away this dreadful flu.

  The art gallery just off the Sonoma State campus is small, but not quaint. Situated in the middle of 4th Street in Santa Rosa, among an eclectic mix of upscale and fair trade shops, the gallery has a wall of windows facing south. This wouldn’t be a problem if it wasn’t eighty-two degrees outside and the gallery’s air conditioning wasn’t workin
g.

  I loosen my black scarf and swallow the saliva pooling in my mouth as the urge to vomit begins to overtake me again. Closing my eyes, I take a few deep breaths as I attempt to quell the sensation.

  “I’m sorry. I just need a minute,” I say to my professor as we move onto the next photograph in the exhibit.

  If I knew, when I chose to be an art major, that I’d have to do my final exam — a solo show using selected pieces from my photography portfolio to tell a story — in an overheated art gallery, while secretly popping Tylenol every time my professor turns his back on me, I might have seriously reconsidered my dream of being the next Annie Leibovitz. Or I might have chosen a major where I could take my final exam in an air-conditioned lecture hall. At the very least, I’d rethink my brilliant idea to wear a scarf today.

  My attempt to look like an artsy-fartsy ballerina — in my lucky black scarf, baby-pink bateau-neck top, black skinny jeans, and pink ballerina flats — and my refusal to request a postponement of the solo show the moment I came down with the flu, will be my downfall. No matter how hot it gets in this gallery, I can’t take off my lucky scarf. Therefore, I predict, if I don’t get high marks on this final, I’m going to drop dead on the high-gloss marble floor.

  I trail behind Professor Healy like a baby duckling, answering his questions about lenses, exposures, and filters while trying not to stare at the Florida-shaped birthmark in the center of his bald spot. The show is supposed to tell a story, and the only story that matters in my world is the story of Ben and me. The exhibit begins with images of the beach, where Ben and I first met, then moves through a collection of places we’ve visited together. With Ben’s fame becoming such an issue these past few years, most of the pictures depict secluded landscapes: sparkling lakes, rocky coves, and misty forests.

  As I discreetly wipe the sweat trickling down the back of my ear, my phone vibrates in my hand. I quickly slide it into my back pocket as we approach the picture I took of the Sky-house.

  The Sky-house is a hollowed out Redwood tree near the forested campsites of the Bodega sand dunes, just steps away from where my boyfriend Ben Hayes and I grew up next door to each other in Bodega Bay, California. The Sky-house was Ben’s hideout before it became ours, and we promised we would never reveal the location to anyone. He approves of my use of the photo for my final, but I’m supposed to destroy the evidence after my solo show. We named our tree the Sky-house because you can look straight up through the hollow trunk and see the sky.

  Also, because it was fun to play “house” in there.

  I wish Ben was here. He would kiss my forehead and tell me everything was going to be okay. Afterward, he’d take me home and make me some instant ramen — because he couldn’t make chicken soup if his life depended on it. Then, we’d cuddle on the couch to watch Futurama until falling asleep.

  Oddly enough, I didn’t get my usual good morning text from Ben today. He must have been up late and decided to sleep in. But he knows today is my show. It’s not like him to forget to wish me well before a big test.

  As Professor Healy examines the photograph of our hideout from various angles, my phone begins vibrating in my back pocket — nonstop. One pulse of vibration after another, like a phone call that keeps ringing or when one of my Instagram pics goes viral and my notifications are blowing up. But I haven’t posted any pics on social media in a few days. I’ve been too busy preparing for the show.

  Bzzz. Bzzz. Bzzz. Bzzz. Bzzz.

  Maybe my voicemail isn’t working. Or maybe the mailbox is full. I’m notoriously guilty of letting unchecked voicemails pile up.

  Bzzz. Bzzz. Bzzz. Bzzz. Bzzz.

  The vibrating continues for what feels like at least five minutes straight, but is probably only a couple minutes. I finally pull the phone out of my pocket and apologize to Healy for the interruption. Glancing at the screen as I reach for the power button, I see a long list of Instagram mention notifications on my lock screen, and my heart drops along with my jaw.

  2 min ago: @charleywinters have you seen this, girl?

  2 min ago: lmao. @charleywinters just got dumped in front of 600K people. #sorrycharley

  2 min ago: @charleywinters More like millions of people! This is gonna be news.

  1 min ago: @charleywinters Don’t pay attention to these assholes. You didn’t deserve this. #sorrycharley

  1 min ago: so fucked up. can’t believe @officialbenhayes would do something like this to @charleywinters #sorrycharley

  1 min ago: @charleywinters don’t pretend you haven’t seen this post. @officialbenhayes is too good for you. #byefelicia #sorrycharley #actuallynotsorry

  1 min ago: haha! so true! Why doesn’t @charleywinters get that bump on her nose fixed? #sorrycharley

  “Charlotte, are you listening?”

  I suddenly understood why Ben didn’t text me this morning. I can literally feel my blood pressure dropping. My entire body feels cold and light as a feather, like I barely exist.

  The room begins to spin as I look up from my phone screen. “What?” I murmur as Healy’s red, bulbous nose comes in and out of focus.

  I unlock the phone as my professor’s voice murmurs in the background of my consciousness. Tapping the Instagram app, then a recent notification, I’m taken to a picture of Ben riding a motorcycle on the beach at sunset. Sitting on the back seat, with her head thrown back in gleeful laughter, is a blonde I recognize right away. A blonde the entire world could probably recognize.

  The caption on the photo reads:

  @officialbenhayes to new beginnings. #instalove #newlove

  MAY 11

  I blink as Professor Healy steps around me so he’s facing me straight on.

  “I asked, ‘How long is the exposure on this picture?’” he glances at the label beneath the frame then turns back to me. “The one titled ‘Sky-house.’ You’ve achieved a stunning depth of field with this lens. How long is the exposure? Based on the softness, I’m guessing it’s at least a thirty-minute exposure, since it doesn’t appear to be motion-blurred or out of focus or over-exposed.”

  I open my mouth to speak, but only one word comes out. “Exposed.”

  “Charlotte, your face is blood-red. Are you all right?” he says, grabbing my elbows.

  I shake my head, still unable to speak as my phone continues to vibrate in my hand.

  “Oh, dear. Let’s sit you down. This is not the first time I’ve seen this happen,” he says, placing a hand on the middle of my back to guide me toward a gold velvet tufted bench about ten feet away.

  “Do you need some water?” the gallery curator, a middle-aged woman with dark hair as glossy as the marble floor, asks.

  I shake my head again as I sit on the bench. “No,” I whisper, reaching up to pull off my lucky scarf.

  “Are you sure? Do you mind if I feel your forehead?” the woman asks gently.

  I nod this time, closing my eyes and flinching slightly at the sensation of her cold hand on my face.

  “Oh, my God. You’re burning up. I’m calling an ambulance,” she says, setting off to find a phone.

  “Wait,” I call out, holding up my still-vibrating iPhone. “I have a phone… Here. Take it. I don’t want it.”

  As she walks toward me, I can’t help but think about that chubby girl in my Spanish class. We are kin now. Today will be known as the day a single photograph changed my life.

  The curator is a couple feet away from me when I lose my grip, dropping the phone on the floor as I pass out.

  1

  R.I.P.

  Now

  Social media is a blessing and a curse. It can be used to galvanize support for important issues, like shedding light on social injustice. It’s the best resource we have for sharing inspiring art and funny memes. On the other hand, social media has also become a means to pass judgment on people before they can defend themselves. The court of public opinion delivers its justice swiftly and without remorse.

  I killed all my social media accounts about two and a ha
lf years ago. I’d rather be a nobody than a cog in that kind of machine. My friends, however, have started to question my commitment to this philosophy.

  The yellow glow from the streetlight pours in through the glass storefront, illuminating Michelle’s cinnamon skin as she hits the switch on the wall to dim the lights inside The Dunk seafood restaurant. Her silky black hair is pulled up tightly in one of those high ponytails that always make me wonder if she’s secretly walking around all day with a massive headache.